Leaving to stay.

She was someone who liked to read an awful lot. Sat in her room all night, wondering
How is it that I cannot be part of that world?
How is it that I have to sit here, pondering
Looking out of my window and seeing stars form them all, all those who I read about.
And as I look away, they disappear, dissolve into the night
Why cannot they stay with me?

And one early morning when she woke up,
the sky was a shimmer of blue.
found pearls in her hair
And a note by her bed
It told her:
"Your Dream has Come True"

She ran outside, disbelieving, and the Book opened before her eyes
Told her all its secrets,
Glowing from inside,
as the pages turned themselves.

"Are you ready to join us?" cried voices from within the Book
in a mesmerising chorus of echoes, echoes
And she cried in return, but her voice got lost
In the dance of a myriad speckles.

She put on her travelling shoes,
but in her heart, she was still a princess.
Switched robes for a cloak and crown for hat
Took with her a map and a compass.

The voices were howling, the wind picked her up
As she bid her castle goodbye
That day was the last; will she ever be back?
Perhaps we will know it in time.

♥
I am so happy that now I have time to go back to blogging and reading, amongst lots of other wonderful things. The poem was inspired by a book I am reading at the moment, 'Inkheart', where a man finds out that he can read characters to come out of books. I think, if I had any special powers, I would love to be able to enter any book as any character within it.

The past two weeks have been good, my induction days for sixth form went well and I am actually rather excited to start in September! Then I became very ill and spent two days in bed feeling absolutely terrible. Luckily, I recovered pretty quickly. While I was ill I watched Atonement for the very first time, which was very inspiring. If you get the chance, watch it!

I have also been doing lots of shopping; my local H&M had a huge sale and my prayers of finding a grey cardigan were answered as I discovered the one that I am wearing in the photos. It was a mere £7 and goes with absolutely everything! I was unsure of how to wear the blue pinstripe dress for a while, which was a real shame but it seems to go with the cardigan so perfectly! My next point of obsession is this dress from River Island, which is absolutely required in my wardrobe, haha. I can already picture a multitude of ways of wearing it but sadly it is not online or in my local store, there is one on eBay but it is a size 8 which I doubt I'll fit into...


One last thing: I am absolutely thrilled to have been amongst the lucky few who won the Ma Dame campaign that I blogged about below! My package from Buzz Paradise hasn't come yet but I will show you what I won as soon as it arrives. Thanks so much Buzz Paradise!!

Please stay tuned as in my next post I have some more super exciting/relieving news :)

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Cardigan, H&M
Blue pinstripe dress, Whistles (Bicester)
Pearls, vintage
Creepers, my Dad's

P.S. Do you like the new header?

This time Baby I'll be Bulletproof.

I can only hope that this time I will be posting much more, seriously. Three months of freedom, ahh this time I really shall have no excuse but to update as often as I can. I honestly have so many things to tell you. I cannot wait.

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Beret, Accessorize
Dress, H&M
Belt, Vintage
Tights, Elle
Bag, Primark
Creepers, my Dad's :)
Skull ring, thrifted

Ma dame...c'est une grande surprise!

I am extremely excited right now because I have been offered a chance to take part in solving a most difficult case...A case which involves working with the utmost accuracy to unsolve a captivating mystery. I am, of course, talking about Jean Paul Gaultier's fragrance, Ma Dame. To celebrate Ma Dame's 21st anniversary, Jean Paul Gaultier has invited a mystery artist whose favourite art, apparently, is the 'art of surprise'! A handful of bloggers (and their readers!) have been offered the opportunity to guess the mystery artist with the help of some clues by Jean Paul himself. It's almost like an online treasure hunt and super exciting!

Here is the first clue I have been given:

The rest of the clues are in the video at the bottom, highlighted in pink. Many artists have come across my mind to be honest; at first, I thought it may have been Pink, but I noticed that the video was almost from the point of view of the mystery guest and the reflection in the mirror was male. So perhaps, because of the numbers 1234, Feist and DJ Martin Solveig sprung to mind because they both have songs named 1234. Besides, the video showed a record and headphones which remind me of Solveig even more. What do you think?

Jean Paul Gaultier Maison de Couture: What's happening?
by JPG_MA_DAME

Exams are almost over (just 2 to go!) so I promise I will soon do a long post uncovering my ventures this month. I have until the 22nd of June to figure out the "guest star" so please if you have any ideas do help me out! There just might be something in it for you too :)

Untouched.

I surrender. To you, to the world, to the starlit sky.
The violins are broken, shoved in a corner
The mist is everywhere, outspoken

Never, never, never.
They won't touch. They won't regret. Silver strands of our spiderwebbed love
Slipping away, slipping away...
I surrender. Forever. To you.

♥

Leotard, American Apparel
Mustard Cardigan, Tu
Skirt, French Connection
Tights/necklaces, gift :)

♥

This week I have had two Humanities exams which I think I did not fail, which is a good sign. I have had a tiring week and it is very soothing to come back to my blog, and now I am writing this post while listening to Dustin O'Halloran's Opus 23 and my eyelids softly reminding me that they would like to close soon.

Bunny T-Shirt, Topshop

♥

Two weeks ago I have had a good attempt at curling my hair; for the first time in my life, I put hairspray onto my hair to keep it in place as I was so tired of my curls disappearing before lunchtime. I would really like to style it differently but I don't know how; most days it is just a long, frizzy mess which I usually just put in a bun. I will probably have it styled for prom which brings me onto the next point - I have a prom dress! No, I cannot believe it myself too. Words cannot describe how guilty I feel after spending an entire day on Brick Lane with my dad waiting patiently while I searched for a dress and tried on a few, only to return with nothing; he doesn't do shopping and only came along because mum wouldn't let me go on my own. I tried on a gown in Rokit but it was in absolutely dismal condition and they wanted £215 for it, so we did not buy it. I longed to stay there longer as it was my first time in a place where there was so much vintage in such a small place, and everywhere I looked there were gorgeous dresses, but sadly not ballgowns. What is both more upsetting and a relief is that the next day we went into a shop 10 minutes away from where I lived and found an exquisite dress which I knew was what I was looking for all along, and it was incredibly cheap. I will show it to you next week after I have my prom, for I am just a little bit superstitious :)

You may have noticed the title of the post, well I am currently in love with this song by the Veronicas - isn't the contrast of the beautiful strings part with the rapid lyrics just so echanting?

I have many more outfits and news to post but for now, a very good night to you and may you all have the dreams of your dreams. Farewell, and be sure to be back.

The Dress, the Bag and the Bird.

Broiderie Anglaise Dress, thrifted vintage
Tights, car booted vintage
Shoes, my mum's

Yesterday at skating has been exceptionally good. I fell over a lot, which was very good for me because it meant I was trying, and now I am very pleased with my axel. Today, however, a bad attempt turned it all around; I fell straight on my hip and it is now insanely painful. Still, this dress mum had bought me turned it all around.

This afternoon a neighbour's cat named Sophie struck a small fledgling under its wing and made it bleed in front of my very eyes! It was so sad; luckily the injury could have been worse from what I saw. My mum, my little sister and I were all fussing over the tiny bird that couldn't yet fly and we called the RSPCA. They said that we should put it in a box and take it to a local shelter or vet, but it ran away before we could, and disappeared. It was very upsetting; I truly hope that the poor little thing will survive! I really do sometimes hate cats, even though it's nature but it is still unsettling when it happens before your very eyes :'(

Oh, and I gave myself a little treat and bought an adorable bag with owls. It is remarkably cute and I couldn't wait until it arrived, plus it's a very good size and all of my school things actually fit with no problems (at last). I've had so many compliments already.

This is it so far, it is now unfortunately revision time as my first GCSE is in only two weeks! Before I forget, please please can anyone tell me anywhere I could buy a good prom dress? I have searched high and low and I just cannot find something stunning enough to wear; I wanted a princess ball gown but they all look very tacky on the websites I looked at, and there is nothing vintage of the sort on eBay. Any ideas would be most welcome! Oh and do, of course tell me about your Easter - I love to read :)

Ever vast and ever free, this is how she came to be.

I am sorry that I took such a long break from blogging (again). I've missed it so much and now I am so glad that I have some time to catch up. I have news. Many, many news. So many, in fact, that I'm afraid I will forget something. Sprinkled in between the news are recent outfits that I never got round to posting.

Very warm Easter wishes to everyone, I hope you all have a great time.



I have taken lots of exams recently, and so far I think I did okay. I was really happy to find out that I got an A* for the first Science module, it was such a relief because I felt that I didn't do well at all when I sat the exam! I also sat a 10 hour art exam and just about finished my final piece, which is how I wanted it to be but I wish I could have just an extra half an hour to add some more finishing touches. It looks better in person than in the photos, you cannot see the way the cover shimmers because it is coated in so much glittery nail varnish (I think I used up my whole bottle!).

After I empty-headedly left my flute somewhere at school, it got stolen, so it was very difficult to prepare for my Grade 4 exam. Needless to say, it didn't go very well as I had a borrowed flute but I hope that I at least scraped a pass. Time will tell!



Cardigan, Tu
T-shirt, Punkyfish
Skirt, thirfted vintage
Pearls, vintage
Heart necklace, gift from Israel

As you have probably guessed from the above, I had absolutely no time for blogging. It is good that I have some now. It's early to celebrate, though, as the bulk of exams is fast approaching.



Cardigan, Cath Kidston
Jumpsuit, Primark
Rabbit T-shirt (underneath), Topshop

At last, some fashion-related news - I bought a wonderful little black dress for a black-and-white themed party, and it turned out to be a fantastic investment. It was the day of the party and I was running out of time when I went into H&M after trying out about a dozen different black dresses in various shops. The dress itself seemed ordinary, but when I wore it it fitted like a glove, and I figured it could be dressed in so many different ways. I originally wanted to return it because I was only going t wear it for 4 hours and £25 is quite expensive for me. Having thought about it, I decided to keep it and it proved very useful because it is such an effortless solution if I don't have anything fancy enough to wear. This is what I looked like the day of the party:




During the previous half-term my family went for a regular visit at Bicester village, one of the loveliest places I have ever shopped in. The houses always look so neat and homely, you just want to live there! The shops are all designer outlets which means that they sell stock from one or two seasons ago, all for a lot less (but still not always accessible to me!). There is even a Luella, but unfortunately they never seem to have pretty dresses. We usually buy odd little things, but that time was lucky and my mum bought me the most beautiful dress ever! The blue and white stripes reminds me a lot of Alice, or maybe Wendy Darling. It has detachable straps which is a big plus! We also popped into Cath Kidston and saw a lovely cardigan which we bought too; as you can see it goes absolutely perfectly with the dress. Needless to say I felt amazingly lucky.

I seem to have been showered with the most wonderful gifts of late. My mum has been spoiling me with lots of lovely things. Ribbed tights, the cosiest vintage argyle sweater, pearls, books and today this clutch bag. Sometimes I think I don't deserve it all. Oh, and she had bought me another dress, this time in a charity shop, and I am absolutely in love with it. I hope to show it to you very soon.

Hairbow, vintage
Pearls, vintage
Sweater, vintage
Dress, Influence

Another bit of news - I have been accepted by an acting agency! I'm not sure how good it is in temrs of credits, but their website looks very professional. I hope I will get some work because I need money to buy things, haha. Whilst we are on the subject of acting, I went to see another West End show! This time it was a reward trip from the school; we saw Gareth Gates as Joseph which was truly amusing. Not in a bad way necessarily, but the way he breathes when he sings is so peculiar, and the giggles at the back were at their peak when he came on stage topless! My favourite part was the sets; they did such an amazing job with what I think must have been no less than 10 different sets all switching around.

A Tag and Two Massive Apologies

Before I do a huuuuuge post outlining the past two months of my life, I have to apologise to two lovely bloggers. First on the run is the wonderful Ella of Rebel Angel, who tagged me back in October (!) and I still haven't done her tag! My lovely Ella, I'm so sorry that it took me so long to do it. I promise you that I didn't forget your tag and that it has been systematically nudging me in the back of my head saying 'don't ignore me, don't ignore me'...Now it's finally time!

❤

Six Random Things About Me
1. I have always wanted to be able to do a handstand, and I was always too frightened. I finally did it 2 weeks ago!
2. I had a phase when I only fancied ginger people.
3. I still love ginger people.



4. I didn't wear a pair of jeans until I was 11 (just like you, Ella)
5. I once bought a whole cabbage-head to school and shared it with everyone in my class and we had a massive cabbage-eating session.

6. I'm fascinated by really unusual things that cannot be explained. Eg. the Codex Seraphinianus or the Voynich Manuscript. They overwhelm me, in a good way. It's not always complex things, too; try looking up next time you are outside at night. Can that ever be explained?

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Six Random Things I Like
1. Stars.
2. English countryside, along with Thomas Kinkaide-style cosy, old-fashioned houses
3. Dresses.
4. Rye bread with raisins.
5. Animals.
6. Fairy tales
7.Ginger people??

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Six Random Things I Don't Like
1. When people say 'no offence/ i don't mean to be rude but...' The epitome of being rude.
2. Worms.
3. People that refuse to try, or give up too easily.
4. Wasted days.



5. Jew jokes. I cannot stand it when what is left of jewish people is being laughed at, not after what had happened. Not ever.
6. Small children on hockey skates that get in my way when I train.

Six (not random) Bloggers I Tag
1. Selina of Flying Saucer
2. Hannah at Fawned
3. McCall
4. Micaela of The Drifter and the Gypsy
5. Joanna of Unicorn Diaries
6. Kiss My Sass

My second apology goes to the lovely Pratishtha of ShotCouture, who sent me the loveliest wallet ever from India and it took me this long to say thank you! It was by Ritu Kumar and exquisitely packaged too, truly a gem to receive. Check out her blog here!



Sorry, I cannot find photo credits as these have been saved by me a while ago. PLEASE let me know if you see yours :)

I Luellve You.

Luella's show at 10am today has been really cool. The clothes are a bit subdued for Luella, but I love the military meets good-girl look, I will have to experiment! The pictures speak for themselves; the hair looks I think are incredible.

Backstage:









































Catwalk:

More images will be added later, watch this space! Remember you heard it here first :)

Images courtesy of Grazia unless stated otherwise

It's worthy of a picture postcard

Words cannot describe how utterly bad I am at blogging. If I did it as a job, I would have been sacked a looong time ago! Dear readers (if there are any of you left), sorry for my month-long absence. GCSEs and coursework have taken the better of me I'm afraid, this term has been crazy with revision, exams and bucketloads of coursework. Even skating took a back seat. The good thing is, I have a lot of coursework out of the way now and just have little bits to do here and there; I have also nearly finished my textiles dress and am now adding finishing touches for the fashion show! I am so proud of it. Staying for four hours after school to finish it was definitely worth it! The only thing I need is a purple tutu to go underneath, but I can't seem to find one anywhere? I need as close to the professional ballet ones as possible because it needs to stick right out, any ideas? They are all so expensive! Stay tuned for photos, I will soon take some because the weather is lovely!

The snow over here which I am sure you have heard about was utterly amazing. I went sledging, built 3 snowmen, got my little sister stuck up a tree, made snow angels and of course took so many photos! Seriously, my folders are bursting, the ones on here are just a select few!

Bunny T-Shirt, Topshop
Skirt, altered vintage
Brogues, H&M
Bowler Hat, Topshop
Coat, Next
Gloves, Roeckl

So much happened this past month, it's been really fun actually. I went to some really good parties, one of which was halloween themed and I had no idea what to wear, so I stole Selina's awesome idea and ended up being very much in the spotlight! Haha. The photo really doesn't do the makeup justice, the zips looked so good...well, until they fell off anyway. I couldn't find eyelash glue sold separately and no spirit gum so I used double-sided tape (!!). Obviously as soon as I got hot they fell off, but by that time everyone had seen my makeup (there were some too darn funny reactions), plus it didn't hurt peeling them off. Tutorial here if you're intrigued!

Americal Apparel leotard
Red Herring skirt

I will post some more news and what I've been up to later today, stay tuned!

The Door to my Past

Happy 2009 everyone! I'm sorry I've left this so late. How was everyone's Christmas? Was it white? Grey? Pink with blue polkadots? I'd love the latter, but according to my box of Derwent watercolours, mine was more like French Grey. Still OK though, it snowed today to make up for it! But more on that later. My birthday was actually more of a blast than I'd expected. I got absolute looooads of stuff for Crimbo/birthday/New Year, mostly little, homely, heartwarming gifts that were absolutely delightful (do I sound like an Oxfam advert?)! Frankly, I didn't expect so much. I feel luuurved. I think they deserve their own post, personally. My birthday was spent at home with the family, but I had a birthday meal with the skating girls on New Year's day, which was quite fun. The restaurant (Haha Bar & Grill, anyone?) was surprisingly empty but really cosy inside, with a ceilingscraper Christmas tree that reminded me so much of that scene in Hogsmeade in the third Harry Potter film (which I watched on Christmas day and absolutely adored).

I'm going to do a more decent-sized post later this week, when I get a moment, but right now a quick vomit of news (ewwww):
Uno: My sister and I have *deep breath* passports! Finally, after a massive legal mash-up that threatened our family being deported back to Israel which lasted 2 years and made our family life very unpleasant... I can now go on holiday and legally work!
Dos: I have a job! Yes, I have a job! Money! The downsi----er, it's a hoovering job.
Tres: I am happy. Which is making me happy.

I would like to say that the title of this post isn't accidental. With the new year already ahead of us, many people want to start afresh and are making new years resolutions...But actually, you don't have to wait until a certain day to turn your life around. You can do it now, today, tomorrow. That's what I want my 2009 to be like. Doing things at the right time, and never, ever wasting time. I am closing the door to bad past, and I'm not coming back.

Hairbow, handmade
Dress, H&M
Cardigan, Mum's vintage
Tights, vintage
Tote, paperchase
Cross-body bag, Primark
Embroidered gloves, Roeckl
Pumps, Jaeger